An Update on My Situation

[_Rocket_ 656 / 8,277]

Hey there everyone. Friendly neighborhood programmer boi here.

 

For those of you who haven't read my latest status update I posted a while ago, please do so: https://gflclan.com/profile/42374-_rocket_/?status=11077&type=status

 

Now that you are caught up, here's the update.

 

Some people might have assumed I just left the community. That is partly my fault since I didn't make an official announcement here until tonight. But I haven't left the community.

 

My situation has gotten worse. The apartment that me and my family live in had a monthly rent increase. It was increased by $100 a month. Yes, you heard that right. An extra $100 every month for a 950 square foot apartment that has terrible internet. Things haven't gotten any better.

 

I am getting stir crazy over here. I'm not able to program anything despite how badly I want to. I don't feel like I'm doing anything with my time, and it's eating away at me. I'm not in the greatest headspace due to all this. So I distanced myself from GFL for a while. I plan on continuing to do so. I would much rather be active here when I'm feeling happy... Or at the very least content with my life situation. Right now I am far from content. I couldn't even describe my situation as remotely comfortable.

 

Frankly I'm stressed out. I'm a little lost. I don't know what to do each day. I don't want you all to feel sorry or upset, but you all have a right to know why I'm so absent. I didn't distance myself from GFL by choice. Honestly I don't think I ever felt so accomplished and so fulfilled with my life like how I was a few weeks ago. I was starting to make video games, a dream I've had since I was a kid. I was meeting new people and making friends. I was learning so much about my programming practices. I felt amazing...

 

No I'm not depressed, don't worry. I'm not incredibly sad, or overly stressed. I can manage. I still have a few close friends I talk to often, and they help me get by.

 

Things will eventually get better. My family and I are trying our best to get out of this damn situation. We currently have a plan... So we have that going for us. I might be able to come back in a month, or two months. Hell it might not be for another 6 months... I'm optimistic, and hopeful. I'm trying my hardest not to lose hope. But man... It can be hard sometimes.

 

Hope all your days are going well.

[Royal 94 / 3,066]

Life is a nonstop adventure of ups and downs, and what doesn't kill you make's you stronger. You will come out of this situation stronger than you already were, and GFL already appreciates you a lot for what you've done for people. I wish you the best of luck, Rocket.

Edited January 20, 2020 by Royal.

[_Rocket_ 656 / 8,277]

You know that's the thing that I hate about distancing myself from GFL, Royal. I don't feel as if I've done enough for everyone. I didn't finish the GFL game, I didn't finish the addon I was developing for Dark RP, etc. So far all I have done is just talk in the forums and moderate the rotation server. That's not enough to say I've changed GFL for the better, or I at least gave something back to the community. And I really don't like that. I didn't do anything for anyone yet. Which is all the more reason why I so very dislike disappearing when I did.

 

I should be doing more. I am capable of doing more. But I can't. I'm restricted. And it's irritating.

 

But all that aside, I still more than appreciate the kind words. You have always been a great guy Royal. Congrats on getting the staff position in Rotation. You'll do great miboi.

[L0st 106 / 2,791]

Hey man, haven't talked to you in a while but I understand your situation. Don't worry, GFL will always be here for you, focus on your life right now, you've done a lot for the community and especially for rot and I can't thank you enough for that. If you need some time for yourself then by all means take it, because no one's blaming you for what's happening right now, it's life, it happens, but you need to focus on you and your family. Don't worry man, we'll always be here for you. 

 

Take care my boi

[Joshy 4,364 / 44,940]

I wouldn't worry about GFL.