Single Status Update
With all I've been learning and doing recently, I honestly have to say I'm proud of myself which is quite rare, lol. For years I've been messing around with programming, networking, and Linux, but I've never actually specialized in anything until the last two - three months besides the period where I was into making websites in 2014 - 2016 via PHP/MySQL. In my case, I really do enjoy writing fast packet processing software via BPF, XDP, and TC in C. Even though it's a huge pain in the ass sometimes (especially with BPF compiler restrictions which I hope is somehow improved on in the future), I feel I'm learning so much from it within a small-ish period of time and plus it benefits the Anycast network for GFL (e.g. being able to implement complex filters to mitigate (D)DoS attacks and more). There's also so many other things I want to get into such as writing encryption libraries (which'll be super helpful for getting into security and making future programs talk to each other through encryption), learning Elixir, Go, and Rust, learning how to make fluent websites with Elixir/Go, reverse engineering, Docker, BGP and complex networking, deeper understanding of the Linux kernel (source code), Linux file systems, and so many more. It's actually overwhelming to think about. These are all areas that highly interest me and I believe after Compressor V2 is completed, I'll begin tackling them.
Anyways, I'm also really hoping that I can find a job or position that I'd feel more useful in. I still haven't heard back regarding the DevOps position I applied for (within my current work place) since there's a delay at the moment, but I really hope I can get it since I feel it'd allow me to learn so much more during the work day over what I'm doing now (getting yelled at by customers with cloud support and so on). That said, it'll make me feel more useful as well (I feel completely useless when it comes to dealing with customers and doing general cloud support) and allow me to put my skills to use. I'm still pretty nervous about how the environment would be since I haven't been in that type of position before, but I suppose it'd be a new beginning to my career and hopefully better than feeling useless and getting yelled at by customers, lol. If I don't get the position, I honestly don't know what I'm going to do
Lastly, I feel I do really need to focus on my health. My physical and mental health is extremely low at the moment just due to everything going on and the things I'm trying to implement with urgency along with just being stressed/burnt out from work, programming, personal issues, and so on. Sadly, due to the urgency of everything, I need to keep pushing out the new software to all the rest of the POPs in the next few days. However, I'm hoping I can eventually just take one - two days off before getting really into Compressor V2 (or whatever name we go with). It's funny because I keep saying I'm going to work on my physical and mental health, but I feel I haven't had the chance to actually take a real break, relax, and implement the plans I've had to improve my health. I'm hoping I can do it at some point though since the more time that goes on, I'd imagine the harder it is to improve them. I'm thinking about taking an actual legit vacation to somewhere in the future once the COVID-19 situation cools down. I just want to find somebody to go with first, but perhaps this would be a great time to turn things around, or perhaps before that too.
I'm really hoping for big changes in my life in the future that leads to me being generally happier (I'm honestly just not happy at the moment and I haven't been in the last few years). I guess we'll see though.