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~rant~
I'm not much of a Korean fan but seeing how someone suicide reminds me of someone very dear to me and it just hurts. Why would you end your life like that? I can be a hypocrite since I did once thought that I shouldn't be alive from my parents physical abuse towards me as a child but I learned that there's more to life than you see.
A Korean pop-star passed away last night: Kim Jonghyun. He committed suicide in his own home with a last farewell message to his sister. I see a lot of searches and communities I am in with girls and boys crying on the fact that the Leader o ShiNee passed away.
What it reminds me of is two of my precious people in my life, although one isn't a big thing but he's still important. My aunt committed suicide three months ago over the emotional abuse from her son and daughter. The father already left a long time ago, he died from cancer. The step-father cheated on her and left ages ago. My aunt took care of me from when I was a baby till even to that day. I didn't know she passed away due to the fact that my parents wanted me to focus work instead of mourning for the death. The other person is a friend I met on-line. He was a sweet guy, and a great friend. We helped each other a lot due to the fact that we both are bisexual. He was in love with a guy and it was going great after I heard that he was getting emotionally abused by his own family, so-called friends, and his own boyfriend. The thought of that made me really sad to the point that I told him to just leave. But I did not expect him to choose the suicide part as a part of leaving. The thought of it just wants me to think that I chose the wrong path for someone's life and that I couldn't do anything about it. We live in the opposite side of the US and there was no way in hell my parents would just let me go save a friend; considering how racist they are.
I just wish... People don't think that the only way out is to die. Life can be harsh and I can admit that, but if you need help, you go get help.
