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Monsoon

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  1. dad its been almost a year please come back

    1. Monsoon

      Monsoon

      I have returned 

  2. Eyyy what's up 

    1. Monsoon

      Monsoon

      Fuckin silently roasting me like honestly we go way back like I’m talking 60s like omg man how’s Sarah doing? Is she still a douche? She kicked my dog and shit haha ? Also love the new wallpaper in your bathroom hit me up later over a pumpkin spice latte alright?

  3. Just got my bad dragon 12 inch dildo in - workin great!

  4. Some things are better written then said.  It really is hard, but it makes more sense.  Having friends come and go has been a hell of a ride.  Hopefully, shit will stop soon.  Having another friend turn on me, really hits hard.  I needed to say this, because they know who they are.

    Sorry.
     

    Mistakes were made

    Friendships will fade

     

    Because of the mess-ups

    Also because I didn't fess-up

    That I was at fault

    I should have known to halt

     

    Before hurting you again

    And realizing this time I can't mend

    The friendship we had, unless I see

    That there is one way, one possibility

     

    I have to do what isn't easy

    Because it is right, it wont be a breezy.

     

    I know I must

    To regain some trust

     

    While this poem may mean nothing

    It was written with the thing

    The thing we know so very clear

    Love, and care, so much is here.

     

    In this poem I do express

    That I was wrong, that I messed

    Up our friendship so very rare

    I did not realize that is was there.

    As I leave, one more thing

    I am so sorry, for everything


    Goodnight everyone.

  5. Hey Vio, could you check my admin application? I think I'm ready to become admin.

     

  6. Hey Vio, could you check my admin application? I think I'm ready to become admin.

     

    1. Monsoon

      Monsoon

      Tbh patience is key. There are plenty of other people waiting in line, me included. Chill.

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  7. Well, I've finally finished my "Dream PC" and am installing drivers now. The computer looks amazing and will perform like a champ! I hope to have it up and running by the end of the night.

    1. Monsoon

      Monsoon

      Hey nice my dude, enjoy!

  8. I think  I played with you over on ragdoll combat, and if so you seem really chill. Nice meeting you man!

    1. Monsoon

      Monsoon

      I'll see if I can, but if  I don't have a good day!

  9. TY all for the support.

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    1. Monsoon

      Monsoon

      congrats my dude, proud of you, keep it up :^))

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  10. My grandmother passed away not too soon ago and it's still hard living without her. She did a lot for me and I hope she's happy

    1. Monsoon

      Monsoon

      Thanks for the support! The funeral was hard, very hard. She was an amazing woman, god bless her soul. Thank you again for the support! 

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  11. I have a job interview tomorrow morning

    hell yeah

  12. Just watched my mother get married a couple hours ago. Walking her down the aisle was crazy. I now have a stepdad, and stepsiblings. But now everyone's wasted partying in the main room. So whatever, yea? Lol 

  13. IMG_0372.thumb.JPG.e088ea11a6ba73e02bb21b2a1c087abf.JPGHere's a little W.I.P of my Toffee ❤

    1. Monsoon

      Monsoon

      lookin good so far! ^^

  14. Who cares anymore...not even the one i love talks to me without me talking to them first. I feel like he can go on for days without me, and i can barely last 5 minutes.

     

    People say "There's always someone going through worse" and i get it, and that sucks for them, but that doesn't matter at all really, doesn't fix my feelings, doesn't fix my emotions.

     

    I've felt like this for weeks, maybe even months...without a way to vent it. I've hidden my feelings in false happiness, and making jokes and saying funny things. I've honestly been just depressed and stressed all the time. From server stuff to school stuff to other real life stuff, I've been just stressed at everything.

     

    I'm failing at least 2 classes, my relationship is spiraling down and i have no more ideas for Hide and Seek, along with other small problems.

     

    I used to use managing Hide and Seek as a way to escape my feelings, adding new things and working with Lua, and it's made me happy adding things and tinkering with things, but now i don't know what to do anymore with the server. Especially new things, and nothing is sparking for me. I'm a dull blob with no use anymore. Used to be full of color, but now i'm just grey.

     

    I don't know what to do with anything, and i feel like i'm useless at this point. I don't get anything in school, and i don't get anything in life. I'm in a useless online relationship with someone i feel like i love, but i never think i'll actually see them, but i still love them, but sometimes i feel like they'd be better off without me. I love them, but i don't know if they truly feel the same. They say they do, but sometimes it doesn't feel like they mean it. He doesn't try to talk to me, and when he does, it's for 2 minutes then it's completely silent for a long time. Even just now i was talking to him and someone came in and micspammed in our TeamSpeak, and i left the thing, and i was hoping he'd say something about it, but nothing. I probably won't hear back from him until i say something to him tomorrow. We don't talk like we used to, and i'm too scared to hurt his feelings and i keep everything inside.

     

    Everything's been a pool of just stress and hatred towards myself and my actions. I don't know what else to do anymore.

     

    Sorry for the long status update, i just don't know where else i'd put this. Whatever though, right? Someone's worse off than me, so who cares anymore.

    1. Monsoon

      Monsoon

      I don't know you but I hope everything gets better for you ^^ best of luck friend!

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