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Status Replies posted by Monsoon
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Eyyy what's up
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Just got my bad dragon 12 inch dildo in - workin great!
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Some things are better written then said. It really is hard, but it makes more sense. Having friends come and go has been a hell of a ride. Hopefully, shit will stop soon. Having another friend turn on me, really hits hard. I needed to say this, because they know who they are.
Sorry.
Mistakes were made
Friendships will fade
Because of the mess-ups
Also because I didn't fess-up
That I was at fault
I should have known to halt
Before hurting you again
And realizing this time I can't mend
The friendship we had, unless I see
That there is one way, one possibility
I have to do what isn't easy
Because it is right, it wont be a breezy.
I know I must
To regain some trust
While this poem may mean nothing
It was written with the thing
The thing we know so very clear
Love, and care, so much is here.
In this poem I do express
That I was wrong, that I messed
Up our friendship so very rare
I did not realize that is was there.
As I leave, one more thing
I am so sorry, for everything
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Hey Vio, could you check my admin application? I think I'm ready to become admin.
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Hey Vio, could you check my admin application? I think I'm ready to become admin.
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Well, I've finally finished my "Dream PC" and am installing drivers now. The computer looks amazing and will perform like a champ! I hope to have it up and running by the end of the night.
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TY all for the support.

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My grandmother passed away not too soon ago and it's still hard living without her. She did a lot for me and I hope she's happy
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I just want to be ok again. God help me.
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I have a job interview tomorrow morning
hell yeah
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Just watched my mother get married a couple hours ago. Walking her down the aisle was crazy. I now have a stepdad, and stepsiblings. But now everyone's wasted partying in the main room. So whatever, yea? Lol
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Who cares anymore...not even the one i love talks to me without me talking to them first. I feel like he can go on for days without me, and i can barely last 5 minutes.
People say "There's always someone going through worse" and i get it, and that sucks for them, but that doesn't matter at all really, doesn't fix my feelings, doesn't fix my emotions.
I've felt like this for weeks, maybe even months...without a way to vent it. I've hidden my feelings in false happiness, and making jokes and saying funny things. I've honestly been just depressed and stressed all the time. From server stuff to school stuff to other real life stuff, I've been just stressed at everything.
I'm failing at least 2 classes, my relationship is spiraling down and i have no more ideas for Hide and Seek, along with other small problems.
I used to use managing Hide and Seek as a way to escape my feelings, adding new things and working with Lua, and it's made me happy adding things and tinkering with things, but now i don't know what to do anymore with the server. Especially new things, and nothing is sparking for me. I'm a dull blob with no use anymore. Used to be full of color, but now i'm just grey.
I don't know what to do with anything, and i feel like i'm useless at this point. I don't get anything in school, and i don't get anything in life. I'm in a useless online relationship with someone i feel like i love, but i never think i'll actually see them, but i still love them, but sometimes i feel like they'd be better off without me. I love them, but i don't know if they truly feel the same. They say they do, but sometimes it doesn't feel like they mean it. He doesn't try to talk to me, and when he does, it's for 2 minutes then it's completely silent for a long time. Even just now i was talking to him and someone came in and micspammed in our TeamSpeak, and i left the thing, and i was hoping he'd say something about it, but nothing. I probably won't hear back from him until i say something to him tomorrow. We don't talk like we used to, and i'm too scared to hurt his feelings and i keep everything inside.
Everything's been a pool of just stress and hatred towards myself and my actions. I don't know what else to do anymore.
Sorry for the long status update, i just don't know where else i'd put this. Whatever though, right? Someone's worse off than me, so who cares anymore.



