What's been going on with me

[Rick 1,651 / 17,972]

Hello everyone, 

 

Now I didn't originally want to create a topic about this however I feel it's right to let some people know whats going on in my life as I recently decided to take a break due to a personal issue of mine. On June 23rd I rushed my mother into A&E as she had a huge swelling on her foot and was struggling to breathe. I sat there for what felt like eternity waiting for any sort of results as to what is going on with my mother. We discussed the possibility that her anemia was the main cause of this but that was never proven true. Two days later my auntie came over to tell me something that no one should ever have to hear in their life. "They've found lumps in her neck, chest and lower abdomen." At that point I lost it and decided to call it quits on GFL knowing that the possibility that Cancer is the factor lead me to believe I didnt have much time with her left. Whilst I visited her in hospital my family which is very split had to all visit her which let to a lot of inner conflict and my mother being in a lot of emotional pain because of it yet they still decided to carry on with their pathetic behaviour. A few more weeks go by and she looks a lot better after they pump her with 6 blood bags to bring her blood levels up to normal level. Previously it sat at 60 which is dangerously low for someone (The average is around 200). Once they was able to retain a steady blood level she was allowed to leave which was only the start of my concerns. She began to slowly get sick again and I knew at that point it had to be Cancer. My worst fears were confirmed four days ago when she woke me up sat me down with my brother and told me she had lymphoma (cancer). At that point I felt like someone had just stabbed me in the heart and twisted the knife around till I couldn't handle it any longer and it felt like the world was just punishing me for no reason at all. I've been at an all time low lately and with my GCSE results coming around a day later I was in a lot of distress.

 

I arrived at my school to expect the worst results you could imagine, not enough grades to get into sixth form and it would result in me going to a really terrible college and literally failing at life. I walked in grabbed my results and with my friends I decided to say "fuck it" and opened it up to see that I achieved really high grades for what I expected. Out of 10 GCSEs I could of have passed I passed 8 at a level 5 and above (high C, low B considered a strong pass in the new grading system). I only needed five GCSEs to get into the sixth form I wanted and I had achieved 8 instead. This had really lifted my spirit and has been the force to keep me pushing and hoping for the greater good. I've also found out that the cancer my mother has is a slow one which is fortunate but she is getting the lump in her neck removed midway through September and is then starting chemo to kick cancers ass for good I hope. You would always hear the unfortunate events that others face when it comes to cancer but you never think it would happen to someone close to you and with me living with my mother and my dad living further north It's been very hard with this news as if I lose her I practically lose everything. So to sum up the whole post the past three months have been the worst in my life so far.  I just hope the outcome of this is a good one. 

 

 

Thanks for reading,

 

Your home boi Rick

[Akris 806 / 18,197]

Keep your head up, keep you in my prayers.

[JGuary55 707 / 14,712]

my prayers are with you and your family.

[TheJitFace 699 / 18,162]

Praying for your family. Rick you are a good person, think positively and you will get through this. 

[Rena 2,779 / 33,647]

Hope everything gets better. We'll be here for you anytime ❤️

[Crusty 248 / 5,311]

Fuck Cancer.

[Astral Rogue 188 / 3,914]

I hope things will get better for you in the future. 

 

[nick027nd 139 / 3,313]

Thank you for sharing, honestly. It's good to let things like this out sometimes and GFL can offer a lot of support. I lost my mother to cancer when I was young, so I'm all too familiar with this (fuck cancer). Anyway, we're all here for you man and despite whatever happens, life has mysterious ways of working things out in the end no matter how good or bad things seem. Hope all is well! <3

[RivalRevival 986 / 13,689]

Cancer's not always the end, and it sounds to me that's she's in good hands. Epic job on the grades, now just improve your fortnite skills and we're back in business, mate

 

Here's to you and her <3

[Auralanity 1,097 / 19,948]

That shit sucks Rick. Don't worry though, your biggest fan is here for you!

 

P.S~ Will you still sign my mousepad? 

[Qas 110 / 4,140]

Hope things will get better home boyo we’re here for u and ur family 

[Pyros 1,796 / 30,750]

Really nice to see you opening it up and talking about some personal issues. I have a friend who's mather had cancer, she was able to be get cured. 

 

Really glad that even in the most stressfull situation you were able to score good grades at your test, hope your mother gets better.

[Liloz01 1,256 / 19,845]

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[Joshy 4,364 / 44,945]

I wish you and your family well.  This is definitely a hurdle I hope can be defeated.

 

Aside from that: Congratulation on the academic stuff.  I'm sure it doesn't just make you happy, but I know family would give anything to ensure a more promising future for their loved ones; it makes them happy too, which often helps combat these difficulties in some ways.  Keep it up!

[MASTAH 135 / 4,007]

Stay strong we're here and hoping for the best.

[ScootypTooty 371 / 8,393]

Best wishes & prayers from here! My friend's mum also had cancer and the chemo really helped her, she's doing a lot better now and I hope that it goes well there too! <3

[Royce 201 / 4,813]

Oh my god, Rick. I wasn't aware of this post nor your complications that you've had since I was kinda away from the forums. It truly saddens me to see things like this and no one should ever, ever, experience this in their lifetime. I hope you can stay strong and I hope you can strive through this rough patch. From here on, I wish your mother well and hope that everything goes well, smooth and sound. My prayers are with you throughout her recovery.

 

Regardless, I'm really pleased to hear your results and I'm sure you'll strive further with your academic career. I'm sure your family is very proud. Keep your head high, bud. ♥

Edited August 30, 2018 by RockRoyce