Ember The Flareon 22 Report Post Posted September 27, 2021 Over the past few days, I have been obsessively and excessively coding. I initially learned it to try and help the Anarchy server should my admin application get denied, but then I became overly addicted to it. I have been trying to figure out why that is. Part of it is the gratification from seeing things you coded actually working and on screen. Part of it is from the sense of accomplishment from solving what feels like a big puzzle. However, upon reflection, a big part of it is the fact that by learning all this, people here have come to trust my coding skills and even ask me to help them figure out why something is broken or why something works the way it does. Before this, I was feeling considerably depressed. I felt I was in a rut, and no matter what I tried to do, I'd only ever be at most just barely average at it. I felt bad about myself in general. I felt useless and like an annoyance. Now, not only do I have a skill and a passion for my work, I have a sense of purpose. I legitimately feel so happy that people like Haxray trust me to help with issues and others ask me to help determine how things work. People here actually trust a skill I have developed and it fills me with such a sense of pride and belonging that I haven't felt before. It's all feelings I really needed in my life. All of that is why I say that I am so grateful for everyone here on GFL Anarchy. All of you. I thank each one of you from the bottom of my heart for making me feel this way. Thank you for making me the happiest I've been in years. TLDR version: Felt bad, now glad. Thank you! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...